happy birthday, BoGo

February 16, 2009

kerry’s baby boys were born this morning. the little stinkers came early. troublemakers, already, those two.

a year in hair

February 12, 2009

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i am *that* mom

February 10, 2009

you know, the mom you see in a store with a screaming, tantruming toddler. the one who is hissing at said child through clenched teeth, telling her to just sit down and be quiet pleasepleaseplease for one more minute and i swear we are going home soon. the mom who is ignoring the stares of other shoppers looking on in abject horror as she pushes the stroller containing her writhing, protesting toddler, pretending that there is nothing to see here. nosiree…just look the other way as my baby pulls entire racks of clothing onto the floor, kthxbye. she is usually a very agreeable child, at least in public. today was a different story, though i suppose if there is a silver lining to be found in all this, this new feisty behavior will go a long way in keeping me away from target.

i say, “so i heard on NPR…” at least once a day

i have a wicked crush on rachel maddow

i ate nutella today.  it is global nutella day, after all

i believe that a long hot shower at the end of the day makes everything better

i think that coffee mugs and teacups should always be oversized 

i think that size does matter, apparently

i’m learning to listen to my instincts better than i used to

i reread beloved books all the time

i am obsessed with oral hygiene

i have an irrational fear that i will lose all my teeth and need dentures someday

i also have a major fear of snakes, but i believe that it is totally rational

i went to band camp when i was a freshman in highschool

i only joined the band because my brother and sister had been in it

i dropped out after a couple months

i am not musically inclined

i am totally annoyed by the media blowing this whole michael phelps pot ordeal out of proportion

i don’t believe that pot is the gateway drug that everyone says it is

i think my feet are lovely

i say, “so i heard on NPR…” at least once a day

i have a wicked crush on rachel maddow

i ate nutella today.  it is global nutella day, after all

i believe that a long hot shower at the end of the day makes everything better

i think that coffee mugs and teacups should always be oversized 

i think that size does matter, apparently

i’m learning to listen to my instincts better than i used to

i reread beloved books all the time

i am obsessed with oral hygiene

i have an irrational fear that i will lose all my teeth and need dentures someday

i also have a major fear of snakes, but i believe that it is totally rational

i went to band camp when i was a freshman in highschool

i only joined the band because my brother and sister had been in it

i dropped out after a couple months

i am not musically inclined

i am totally annoyed by the media blowing this whole michael phelps pot ordeal out of proportion

i don’t believe that pot is the gateway drug that everyone says it is

i think my feet are lovely

project, me: day2

February 4, 2009

I took advantage of the amazing springlike weather to take a nice, long walk today. I let rudy off the leash and she ran and ran and ran, through the scrubby brush, around the prairie dog holes, and into the ponds and streams with their edges still laced with ice. she didn’t seem to mind the cold water; I think it just gave her an excuse to run faster. there was almost no wind, which is amazing for this time of year, and the sun was shining. my heart aches with the yearning for spring and summer, and the pangs only grow more intense when I remember that it is just barely February and the coldest, snowiest months of the Colorado winter are yet to come. I did breathe deeply when I remembered how I used to take this same walk when my baby was just a newborn, and I would cry and pray the entire time, just hoping to find the strength to get through one more day, or sometimes just one more hour. it filled my heart with such relief and such a profound calmness to realize how far I have traveled in my journey as a mother. part of my commitment to daily exercise is for my physical health, but more than anything I need it for my mental health. today was amazingly restorative in that sense, and it gives me hope that I can endure the next few bitter months and make it to April.

project, me: day 1

February 3, 2009

my friend kristina said i’m too hard on myself.  that’s probably true.  i know that i am my own worst critic but i also know that i do need a kick in the pants to make my health and well-being a priority these days and i don’t take kindly to pants-kicking from others so i have to do it myself.  i ran three miles and did some resistance training today, and i DVRed an episode of core-power yoga (by the way, did i tell you that we just got a DVR last week?  we’ve finally joined the 21st century and never have to watch commercials again!) that i plan on watching at some point.  and i ate pretty well today; pizza totally counts as health food in my world.  so, high five for a step in the right direction.  w00t.